Spending the weekend with Terrell in Wisconsin was fun. He is there for an engineering co-op. Seeing him in his own apartment, taking care of his responsibilities was both inspiring and emotional; my baby is not a baby. From the time I stepped off the plane he was acting like the concerned parent. He was nurturing, caring, and most importantly a grown up. He had dinners and activities planned, I didn’t have to make plans for us. He was the chauffeur, the bodyguard, and the ATM. I’ve always dreamed of raising young men that I could be proud of who were independent, but I wasn’t ready for him to be that just yet. I wanted him to stay the Terrell who needed his mommy. He took me to his job and introduced me to everyone, and gave me a tour of the facility. Each person we encountered on the tour spoke very highly of him. This is a reflection of all the hard work and sacrifice that I put in with him and his brother. This trip was just what I needed to remind me that I’ve worked really hard for the last 20 years and it’s perfectly ok to take a moment and enjoy my hard work; to be thankful for God’s blessings and his covering over our lives.
We all have different ideas of what SUCCESS is. For me it’s raising two young men on my own that are self-sufficient. I sometimes spend my time wondering what I’ve done with my life. And, the truth is I’m AMAZING and I SHINE like no other. I’ve taught two young men how to SHINE and enjoy life. Be happy with how far you’ve come and what you’ve accomplished! Toot your own horn! Celebrate yourself! Stop comparing yourself to others and remember, “I will not be focused on anyone’s success but my own. No matter how appealing their lives may seem, their success do not outSHINE my own” – Karen Civil. As I was getting ready to leave I gave him the biggest hug and tears began to flow. I said I love you and I’m crying because you don’t need me to take care of you anymore. He says “It’s time for me to take care of you, and I’m always going to need you”. Thanks Kendrell and Terrell for the daily reminder of God’s grace and favor, and that my SHINE is just as important as anyone else’s.